• 一个骑士在夜里骑着白马，希望能到达夜空的星域，摘一颗星送给他的 StarLady
• 下着大雨的夜晚，她默默独自一个人在雨中哭泣；这是她和雨的秘密。
• 在你心目中，我是句号，问号还是感叹号？
• 一句好歌词，令人恋上一首歌， 一首歌， 令人回憶起一段过去, 此时的你正在听着那一首歌，回想着什么样的 ‘故事’ 。
• 没有你在身边，在摄氏38度C的夏夜都好像在下雪。
• “树” 有许多叶子环绕着它，若“叶子”的离开是理所当然，那“树”的不挽留便是不想让“叶子”再为它 难过。
• 神说我只能爱你四天。我回：春天，夏天，秋天，冬天。 神说我只能爱你三天。 我回： 昨天，今天，明天。神说我只能爱你两天。 我回：白天，黑天。神说我只能爱你一天。我回：我活着的每一天。是不是有泪光，爱才显得更闪亮，幸福前一定会悲伤。
• 我爱你。。为了你的幸福，我愿意放弃一切 --- 包括你。
• 孤单不是与生俱来，而是由你爱上一个人的那一刻开始。
• 她：你爱我吗? 他：已经爱到危险的程度了。她：危险到什么程度? 他：已经不能一个人生活。
• 爱情是一朵生长在悬崖峭壁边缘上的花，想摘取就必须要有勇气。

i don't know from when onwards, my live has no more love. i love all these quotes in chinese because they speak to me, so pathetic yet romantic love. i wonder when i will meet someone i will really love and whom will really love me. and i wonder how my love life would be. i hope that special one will touch my heart deeply.

we were a bit crazy, we as in my cousin, olivia and i. it's the very first time we played maple story together and she made me laugh so hard. =P

one of the hilarious stuffs she did was that we had to say happy hari raya after any one of us counted down. so it'll be like, 1.... 2... 3... and happy hari raya. it was only after the whole thing that i came to the sudden realization that it should be hari raya haji instead of HAPPY hari raya.

so we kept 1,2,3, and shouted! she sort of forced me to, actually. =P

another thing was that her account had gotten hacked, which was why she didn't have any clothes to wear. the moment we saw her image, we laughed like mad. xmy insisted that she looked like a baby in pampers. so she started screaming...

oli: mummy~
me: who?
oli: mummy~
me: horny mush?
oli: bully me
me: horny mush's ur mum?
oli: wth
me: opps. wrong
me: they r green mush
oli: bully me

don't ask me why i would think that the green mush are actually horny mush. she's quite funny to shout out for mummy to complement my acting. she's real funny.

then she said she has something to show me. she walked to the blue portal, then came out with the f1 face. then she walked back again and walked out with a f2 face. then she walked in again and changed to a f3 face and this continued. if you don't play maple, you probably don't know what i'm talking about. i was laughing like crazy when she did her face-changing acts. then she kept doing the f1 face and told me her face had gotten cramp. oh man. she should go and become an entertainer or comedian. believe me, that face-changing act was quite tough.

then i started to ks her. she loves to put the f5 face, so i'd put the f3 face. then she said, "diao si mi diao". i replied, "lai hood wo lor". she continued, "kua si mi kua". then xmy asked me to say, "buay song lai pa".

that's what i did. haha.

it's really a joy to play with her. =P

i wonder if i'll be able to make it through a levels. everybody seems to deserve the place in the universities lots more than me because i know i'm not working hard enough. somehow, i lack the stamina and motivation to keep on studying. i seem incapable of even handling the life in a jc, so how do i handle the life in university? i chose all the easy ways and i really regret not taking what i am really passionate about. everytime they talk about lit., they forget that i don't take it and it hurts to be the exceptional. it'll forever be my greatest regrets to give up what i once felt so passionately for. i was proud to be a lit. student, but the damn school deprived me of my chance to be one and i really really hated the school for this. however hard i try to get over this, i couldn't, because they lied to me and they placed my future at stake. the fact cannot be changed, and my hatred will never subsidise. i feel like skipping yong's consultation on friday. it's useless because, ultimately, the only obstacle is myself. i don't believe in myself and i probably lack some self-confidence too. i never pass history. maybe this is just a pre-exam syndrome and i know myself, that when it comes nearer and nearer to exams, i'll just escape and stop studying. don't tell me i can do it. how? how can i be able to make it when i am the one giving up? how can i make it when there are thousands of people better than me? how can i make it when dreams and reality are so wide apart? i gave up my dreams when i don't want to pursue my beloved chinese in future anymore because i realize that the majority discriminate against chinese-speaking people. i gave them all up when i came into this school. i heard people call us, who are taking cla, freaks before. don't tell me not to bother, because if you were in my situation, all the criticisms just made you feel so demoralized and made you feel that what you're working for are all crap. my love for chinese has also been reduced when everybody keeps calling me a chinese who comes from china. i am not and i'm proud to be a singaporean. i am good in chinese not because i come from china but because i work hard! what the shitty stuffs are you all thinking about that she is a chinese and SHOULD INHERENTLY BE GOOD AT IT?! you must be thinking, we grow up in different family backgrounds and it's no doubt that my chinese should be better. at the very least, my english is not as bad as those shitty bananas' english. i feel that i'm such a failure as other than chinese, i find myself good at nothing else. i remembered someone comment that it's a bit too late for me to try to improve my english just by coming into a more 'english' environment. i am inclined to believe the otherwise. at least i know for sure, that i have made improvements. even if i'm not better than them, the gap has narrowed and it's a satisfaction coming from within. in 2 weeks' time, we'll be facing our largest examination in our whole lives. everybody expects me to get into an university. trust me, i'm not even halfway prepared, both mentally and physically. stress. stress. stress. because i'll be the first in the family, because i'll be the role model, so i have to get in. nobody teaches me anything but expects me to get there. it's similar to expecting me to know how to get to Heaven when i don't even know how to crawl. Heaven is such a long distance away and i don't even want to learn how to crawl. miracles don't happen, and i don't believe in them. i know i make my own destiny, but the burden is so heavy. i understand that everybody's facing the same problems and same obstacles but nobody knows what kind of pressure i'm under. if i can't make it, i'll be the loser, a disgrace and the good-for-nothing. does anybody know how many pairs of eyes are waiting to see me fall? don't make any comparisons because i came so far alone. i'm not smart and my intelligence is limited. i grope my way through the darkness and am on the verge of breaking down. but then again, even if i fail, the only person who's hurting is myself, thus, i cannot afford to fail. you see the dilemma?

please let me be a mute so that i won't have to speak of my problems. please let my heart die from all the bleeding. please let the time come when i know i have already made it. please let me cry in peace.

ok. i am still awake. i was playing the web games the whole morning and since my sis isn't sleeping either, we decided not to sleep instead. just reading at other people's blogs and laughing at some ridiculous stuffs are enough to keep me awake. it is not that i laugh at everybody's diary entry, just some random and stupid people whom i happen to go into. like when this person said,

"Yesterday night, when my mummy came back home from her frens wedding dinner. Then she opened up my room door and asked me wit joy, '' Ta-dah! Am i pretty??? Hurry Hurry take the photo of me!!!'' I was -_- and surprised! It was bcos i did not expect that my mummy actually was so trendy. As compared to other aunties, the way she dressed herself up was so much diff than the others. Aunties usually went to paragoon for shopping while my mummy went to Far east plaza for shopping. Haha! She dont usually wear branded stuff and rather prefered wear stuff was nice."

i don't understand. aunties go paragon to shop? i thought those who go there are high-end people who can afford, not aunties who will bargain. what? anyway, her paragon was spelt wrongly.

i wish i would have this kind of stamina when studying.

this is taken from insaniquarium. i'd gotten 4 blue fish! they'd drop diamonds down and it's tough to get them because there'll be aliens trying to eat your fishes from time to time, plus it takes an ultra long time to nurture the small fish into a blue one. it's fun. =) actually i'd prefer some puzzle-boggling games, but none are exactly nice and all those which are nice wants you to pay. whatever, this game is quite nice too.

there were many people at the photocopying shop today and i just let them print all that they wanted. 2 people asked me to lend them my card. i was very, very frustrated with the stupid machines that i actually let them print, using my card, for free! i think i'm crazy. and i just let all those who wanted to print print first while i stood there and stared at them. anyway, i'm not that kind-hearted. it's just that it was so hot that i couldn't think properly. damn the machines, damn the not well-ventilated space, damn the person for not printing enough exam papers and i just happened to be the one who didn't have it. never mind. i think i'm a VERY VERY KIND PERSON. =)

it's such a bad day. furthermore, when i went to the toilet, i placed my bag on top of a stack of notes and then i squatted down. PANG! everything dropped down! oh my god! they hit me on my head directly. for a moment, i don't know whether to continue what i was doing or stopped and picked up my stuffs, so i decided to continue. after that, i discovered that everything has dropped out, including the separate pieces of paper. NO! DON'T DROP INTO THE TOILET BOWL! i swear they nearly did.

my my my. it's such a hectic and stupid day.

PHOTOS UPLOADED =)
KIRSTIE, I'M SO SO SORRY. some of the photos turned out to be dark. i'm such a lousy photographer. =P


presents for all my close friends. =) everybody likes my hand-made cherries. i'm so happy. i'm over the moon. i'm HIGH! (don't ask me why i take this photo, i don't know either.)

it's so fun to go around taking photos with your classmates. the feeling is mixed. i admit i don't really enjoy my jc life much, but this year has been an eventful year, perhaps because i started to mix around with the class. but the barrier is still there because i don't see them half the time. the feeling is probably mutual and i don't exactly mind it. nevertheless, my class has all the nice people, what have i to blame?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENLING!


it's the narcissistic wenz's birthday! she really left her autograph EVERYWHERE! and after turning 18, she can finally eat without spilling and splashing her food around. though there was still the fear that her food might come flying into our face, i would say, it's probably a great, big improvement. =) and so, we all did her trademark pose, THE FLOWERPOT POSE!

weird chang e eating mooncakes on the moon.


HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!!!

if only it was bloated fish, i'd poke him, smash him, kick him and put lots of pins on him because he has traumatised me for 2 whole years!

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! =)